Yay!

   It is FINALLY the weekend. I'm so happy I could almost cry. It has been the longest week in the history of ever.
   That being said, it's been a pretty good week too. And the weekend is going to be phenomanal. Tonight I am going to watch T.V. to my heart's content, and I will sleep in tomorrow morning. Then tomorrow afternoon I am going shopping with Jasmine and Rachel, and then at night, I'm going to a dance. And guess who's gonna be there? BEN! And with the luck I've been having this week, everything will be perfect.
   Yay!

Space Junk

   If I weren't so bad at physics I would totally be an astrophysicist.
   See, I LOVE space and time and string theory and all that crazy junk. But I am terrible at math. And this poses a problem in physics, which, incidentally, is mostly math.
   I'm planning on going to nursing school after high school, since I love people and medicine and the science that they do is mosly chemistry, which I also love. But all those stars and planets and black holes and dark energy and dark matter....ah. It's enough to make you wish they were still sending people to the moon.
   I fell in love with space when I started watching Star Trek: Voyager with my brother. (This is the series that people claim isn't a real Star Trek because the captain is a woman. Total crap. She's amazing.) This love was reinforced when we had a brief astronomy unit in science last semester. And now I just read everything I can possible find on the subject because I LOVE it.
   Right now I'm trying to understand anti-matter. It really doesn'tmake much sense. I can't seem to wrap my head around the idea that it's not matter or space, and yet it still exists. But that's what makes it so cool.
   And then there's string theory. This is the theory that proposes that there is actually TEN dimensions. There's the three we know to be true (line, flat plane, and three-dimensional space), there's time, and then there's six more. CRAZY! The problem comes with proving their existence. But we can do it. We proved that the world was round when it was thought to be flat. We proved that the earth orbits around the sun. We've proved crazy, AMAZING things. We'll get this eventually.

Songs That Are Inspiring Me Right Now

   Due to the stupidity of my computer, I won't be posting the links for these songs like I usually do. Pathetic, I know.

"Payphone" by Maroon 5
   I am addicted to this song. I am addicted to Maroon 5. Seriously. Legitamitely. (Did I spell that right? I don't think so.)

"Diamonds" by Rob Thomas
   This is a beautiful song. And Rob Thomas has an amazing voice.

"Everybody's Fool" by Evanescance
   This song is an amazing portrayal of how people hide their emotions. Someone can appear perfectly happy to everyone else, but be dying inside. That's why there needs to be a mix of emotions.

"My Front Porch Looking In" by Lonestar
   This is one of the only songs written in the last decade that places value on the family. I personally hold my family very dear to me, and I love this song.

"What Makes You Beautiful" by One Direction
   No, I am not a crazy over-the-top One Direction fan. But this is a really good song. I dance whenever it comes on. :)

50 Question That Will Free Your Mind: Part 8

36. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
   About some things, it is. For instance, killing people. It's not good to kill people. But about some things, some people might have gray areas. Like abortion, and gay marriage, and some of the other things sitting before our United States congress. I know what my views are on these things, but I'm biased. I may or may not be right.

37. If you just one a million dollars, would you quit your job?
   Seeing as I don't currently hold a steady job, I would have to say, yes, I would quit babysitting and save it so I could go to a good college and get a job I really enjoy.

38. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
   If I enjoy it, I don't know if I really see it as work. It's fun. So I suppose I'd rather have more "work" I actually enjoy. But I would very much enjoy having less work right now. Less homework would be nice. Speaking of which, I should be doing my geometry homework right now.....

39. Do you feel like you've lived this day a hundred times before?
   Ooh, I like this question. Yes, my days are very repetitive. In some ways I like it (you know, that whole "safety in repetition" thing), but for the most part, I don't. But it's kinda hard to mix it up when you gotta go to school every day, with the same classes and the same people. I try. But it's difficult.

40. When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
   Never. If I strongly believe in it, the days of "soft glow" are long gone. When I march into the dark with something I truly believe in, I've got a whole hoard of flashlights and lanterns and it's nearly as bright as day.

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind: Part 7

31. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
   Probably about a month after my last boyfriend dumped me. I was sad for a while, but I decided to move on and stop wasting my life away with wishes. I decided to live in the moment.

32. If not now, then when?
   I think it should always be now, personally. Don't procrastinate and live in the moment. But I suppose some things can wait until tomorrow. Sometimes. Like English homework. :)

33. If you haven't achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?
   That is a GOOD QUESTION. Now I'm gonna have to think about that.....
   Yep, I'm gonna do it.

34. Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
   I suppose it would show narrow-mindedness and lack of experience in life to say no, but seriously, that's the answer. I know there are things that can be conveyed without words, but as a writer, I like words best. I enjoy writing and speaking and I am not good at artsy things like painting and drawing. Words are my favorite form of expression.

35. Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
   I really don't have a good answer for this. I'm a Christian myself, and I hate the idea of war. But at the same time I think that it sometimes becomes necessary to fight for what you believe in. I think there are more peaceful ways of doing that than war. But I guess the rest of the world hasn't figured that out yet.
  

Summer

   I am SO ready for summer.
   We got a brief glimpse of sunshine-y glory on Monday. It was eighty degrees, and it was GORGEOUS. But Tuesday it was back to clouds.
   Reasons I am ready for summer:
1. NO SCHOOL! I am so done being a freshman. I am so done doing homework.
2. The summer weather is BEAUTIFUL here in Oregon. It rarely gets above ninety, and the sky is just perfectly blue.
3. I will not be sleep deprived in the summer. I can sleep as late as I want and wake up to birds chirping outside my window.
4. I can actually do things with my friends. During the school year, we are all so busy that we NEVER do anything, unless it's someone's birthday or something, and in the summer, we can spend all day wandering aimlessly around town if we want to. We can frolic through fields of daisies if we want to. And we have lots of time for bacon chesseburgers and fresh blackberry milkshakes.
   Ah.....summer.

Ben

   Alright. I have to tell you about my newest love interest.
   He is a junior. And he is nice and funny and he actually talks to me, believe it or not. His name is Ben.
   I made the mistake of telling his younger sister (she is in 7th grade) that I liked him, and now I'm fairly positive that he knows. Not that I actually care that much. :)

B Days

   I absolutely 100% despise B days.
   Let me explain: we have this schedule at my school where you have 1st block every day, 2nd, 3rd, and 4th block on A days, and 5th, 6th, and 7th block on B days. Weird, I know.
   Today was a B day.

Science: I am in the Honors Physical Science class. This class isn't as bad since we started chemistry, but physics were despicable. Absolutely awful. I couldn't understand them at all. It's like math that isn't actually math. Actually, I don't even know what physics were. :) But chemistry's all right. It's just that I really don't like my teacher. She never answers my questions and then when she does she answers them with this smugness in her voice that says "You're so stupid for asking that question."

Spanish: Spanish One is so ridiculously easy it makes me want to cry. On the bright side, it's a great place to get my English homework done.

Lunch: I have 1st lunch on B days, and I hate it. It's at 11:00 and that is way too early for me to eat lunch. So I usually eat during English.

English: This class is also very easy, and we read the dumbest stuff ever. Romeo and Juliet, for instance. This is not the beautiful tragic love story that everyone claims it is. It is a four-day relationship between a 13-year-old and a 17-year-old resulting in six deaths. Seriously.

PE: Ah, the glories of Freshman Physical Education. I hate it. Who cares how many push-ups you can do in a minute? Is that going to go on your high school transcript? Not me. No.

My Friends

   I decided that it would be good if I were to introduce you all to a few of my friends. Since I do talk about them a lot.

Rachel is like my sister. See, back in the day, I was besties with this girl, and Rachel was besties with her older sister (Rachel is a year older than me). The two of them moved away, and Rachel and I were somehow thrown together by fate. She's got dark brown hair and hazel eyes and is one of the nicest people I know.

James is my first ex-boyfriend. He and I are very good friends and we talk all the time. He knows what makes me happy and what makes me upset and I like that about him. When I tell people that we dated, they think there's still something going on, but I can assure you, there isn't.

Jasmine is the new girl in school. She is the little sister of a good friend of my mom's so I was the first person here that she met when she moved in with her sister. She shares a locker with me now and she's really really nice.

Archer is someone I had a gigantic crush on for many a year, but we are just friends. He likes to take my food, especially during thrid block (it's right before lunch-we get hungry). He's way smart and can beat anyone in a debate about anything. But don't tell him I said so. :)

Chase is Archer's twin brother. He is amazing and smarter than Archer. He is absolutely brilliant, but he is so freaking lazy that you'd never know. I've never seen him do homework in my life, but he gets A's on all the tests. Go figure.

Gary is another really smart, really funny guy. (I have a lot of nerdy guy friends :) Kinda funny.) He is often my lab partner in science, because he's really good at science, and I'm not.

Duncan is obligated to be my friend because he is in five of my classes. (He used to be in all of them, but I got a schedule change and ruined that one in a million chance.) He's really funny and pretty smart and he once ruined a white bathrobe with ketchup during English. Don't ask.

Mckenzie is the little sister of my latest ex-boyfriend, Mike. She is amazing, except she's not very good at keeping secrets. :) She plays basketball and is a really nice girl.

Kaylyn is the girl who lives across the street from me. We both moved here about the same time, and since we were little kids, and couldn't leave our street without our parents, we started playing together.

Jessica is a senior and is without a doubt the NICEST person I have EVER met. She never yells or gossips or gets mad or ANYTHING. I love her.

Spencer is Jessica's step-brother, and he has a personality similar to Jessica's. He is SO nice. Really nice.

Angler is like my brother. He makes fun of me and I make fun of him and we have a lot in common. He calls me "the female version of [him]" and I call him "the brother I never wanted."

   I think that's pretty much all of my good friends. Now let me introduce you to some people who aren't really my friends.

Mike is my ex-boyfriend and he's been being a real douche lately (excuse my language). And that's enough said, I think.

Bryanna is someone I have already talked about. She's basically a spoiled brat who refuses to lose at anything.

Hannah used to be my best friend, until last year, when she decided to yell and scream at me and then never talk to me again. I'm still not really sure what happened.

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind: Part 6

26. Would you rather lose all of your old memories or never be able to make new ones?
   I'd rather lose the ones I've got. I feel like life would be kinda pointless if I couldn't remember anything I did from now on. In a way, we kinda live to make memories, don't we?

27. Is it possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
   No. The very fact that you ask a question to find out what the truth is would be challenging the truth. For instance, if you say to a young toddler, "Did you eat that cookie?" you are challenging whether or not they ate the cookie.

28. Has your greatest fear ever come true?
   I don't think you can know your greatest fear until it comes. You might think that your greatest fear is being hit by a truck, but one day something may come along that happens unexpectedly and scares you more than you ever knew possible.

29. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
   Nope. Not at all. And that's why I don't let small things get to me anymore. Because in a few months it won't matter, if I even still remember it.

30. What was your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?
   Back when we lived in a little apartment and my dad worked for the state of California, me and my mom and my little brother used to make peanut butter and banana sandwiches and eat them by the pool. We used to go on walks all the time and dress up and dance in the living room. But that was before my dad had a good job. Before we had money. I don't know why people complain about having too little money. It's just as bad when you have it. Everyone is still stressed, just about different things.